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a fishing date;
There were no impromptu trips to Sundermount, in fact. Merrill had holed herself up with the Eluvian, avoiding Hawke whenever possible. The Arulin'Holm stayed at the estate, locked away somewhere, and the Dalish woman didn't want to see or hear from Hawke without good cause. Which was understandable (upsetting, but understandable), and she let Varric and Isabela take over Merrill's undertaking. They'd update her whenever possible and she was infinitely grateful, though she knew things couldn't stay that way forever. Eventually, they'd need to talk, and that would happen when Marian was good and ready. For now, she wasn't.
First on her mind was Anders and his mage underground. He would disappear for days on end, surfacing only to work in his clinic where he would refuse to go on any errands. Too busy, he'd say, occupied with his patients and his manifesto. It didn't stop him from pressing worn papers into her hands at every opportunity, the bastard. Her desk was full of Anders' scrawl, damning evidence if anyone should walk in and ask about it. She'd been certain to lock them in the bottom drawer, out of sight and out of mind, but she couldn't put him off any more than she could push aside the trouble she had with Merrill.
With her hands full of Kirkwall's smaller troubles - bandits, a few raiders on the outskirts, and a blood mage or two - she had nearly forgotten her plans with Cullen until she returned one night to a note on her desk at the end of the week. Even such a simple thing was enough to brighten her mood considerably and she packed that evening, though she wasn't to meet him for two more days.
She used the time to tell only a few that she'd be gone from the city, that no one was kidnapping her, and that she'd be very cross if she came back to find Kirkwall burning in her absence. Only Isabela and Varric gave her a hard time for her attempts at discretion, asking for details and gaining nothing.
By sunset on the second day, she was down by the docks to meet him, a pack slung over one arm and her blades across her shoulders, her eyes on the ships and the few workers lingering around. She couldn't be too careful, even now.
First on her mind was Anders and his mage underground. He would disappear for days on end, surfacing only to work in his clinic where he would refuse to go on any errands. Too busy, he'd say, occupied with his patients and his manifesto. It didn't stop him from pressing worn papers into her hands at every opportunity, the bastard. Her desk was full of Anders' scrawl, damning evidence if anyone should walk in and ask about it. She'd been certain to lock them in the bottom drawer, out of sight and out of mind, but she couldn't put him off any more than she could push aside the trouble she had with Merrill.
With her hands full of Kirkwall's smaller troubles - bandits, a few raiders on the outskirts, and a blood mage or two - she had nearly forgotten her plans with Cullen until she returned one night to a note on her desk at the end of the week. Even such a simple thing was enough to brighten her mood considerably and she packed that evening, though she wasn't to meet him for two more days.
She used the time to tell only a few that she'd be gone from the city, that no one was kidnapping her, and that she'd be very cross if she came back to find Kirkwall burning in her absence. Only Isabela and Varric gave her a hard time for her attempts at discretion, asking for details and gaining nothing.
By sunset on the second day, she was down by the docks to meet him, a pack slung over one arm and her blades across her shoulders, her eyes on the ships and the few workers lingering around. She couldn't be too careful, even now.
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Without the clothes, he felt everywhere she touched him as immediate heat. He shivered hard, his free arm slipping around her lower back to squeeze her in against him. He made no immediate move to take her, however, wanting to give her the chance to find the position best for her first.
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The hard line of the muscles on his chest brushed her stomach as she situated herself, looking for what would be most comfortable and weighing the options against what would be more practical of a position. Kneeling on the bench itself seemed best, damn the minor discomfort; it would be worth it to be in the better position to have him, she could tell. And if she couldn't hold herself up, the strong arm at her back said he wouldn't let anything happen to her.
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He peppered a few more kisses across her midriff and leaned back a little to give her room to settle. Every time he was against her and had to pull away, the air seemed colder in the contrast. He knew that when she came down to him, there'd be no more drawing away for some time.
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Her other hand slid down to part her own folds and slide two fingers inside, making certain she was stretched enough for him. He'd done more than an adequate job of preparing her earlier and she was embarrassingly wet; had there been any traces of light still out, she probably would be red from the thought.
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He swallowed audibly and lifted a hand to her shoulder to brace her. His grip was almost too tight, anticipation knotting him all over.
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She pressed another kiss at his chin, his stubble brushing her lips, and then released him. Her touch lingered only so she would feel him as she lowered herself and she stopped only when he brushed her entrance.
With a shaky exhale, she lowered herself further until she had him inside. She tensed almost immediately as she drew him in, inch by inch.
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"Ahh...Maker's breath..." His head tipped forward, his forehead against the side of her head and chin digging against the top of her shoulder. His eyes shut and rolled back beneath the lids. As hard as it was, he let her come to him, let her set the pace of how quickly she'd take him in and how far. She was so wet, liquid heat all around him. He pressed clumsy kisses to the side of her throat and tried to remember how to breathe.
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Her breathing was shaky at best as she lowered herself, her body pulled taut with the raw feeling within her. She didn't rush, much as she would have liked to, and eventually seated herself with him sheathed inside her. That last inch had her gasping tightly and she clutched him close, arching into his lips as she accommodated him.
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Although he kept his hips and thighs still, nothing could stop the way his erection leaped and pulsed, every slow inch taken another moment he was so pinned by pleasure he could hardly breathe. He wrapped both arms around her, holding her close against the support of his chest. There was no way she was going to tip back or to the side, not even if they had the boat pitching. He intended to see to that.
He kissed her hard, raw want undisguised. He dragged his teeth along her lower lip only to go back to tease them apart with his tongue. He felt the slow glide stop and knew she had taken him in fully. Carefully, he flexed his thighs, a subtle contraction of muscles that pushed him up from beneath her.
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She sharply exhaled against his lips as he pressed up into her. "Oh--" she stuttered, the sound slightly higher in pitch than she had intended. She swallowed the sound and eventually coaxed herself into moving, raising herself up by one, two, three inches and then lowering herself once more. When she attempted the same maneuver twice, the pace had quickened, and she kissed him hungrily. Maker, she couldn't get enough.
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He found a rhythm with her, bending his legs to get his feet in closer beneath him for better leverage. He rocked up hard enough nearly to lift himself from the bench and didn't think twice about the friction burn they'd both have in different places before all was said and done.
He had no idea what time it was or how long they had been doing this. A faint glow at the horizon heralded moonrise, not dawn, though. They would soon be seeing a good deal better as it was waxing toward full.
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He rocked up and she gasped, digging her fingers into his arms. She was far from hurting as she answered with a sharp dip of her own, her thighs quivering with the strain. She wasn't about to regret it, though she knew she wouldn't hold out much longer.
Lips attached to his jaw and then his throat, laving small circles of tongue in between breathy moans. She rocked against him and whimpered.
Power outages suck.
He tipped his head, lips brushing her cheek and temple, wherever he could reach. He wasn't sure how long he would last. The slow build had both of them so near frantic that it was just a matter of wringing as much pleasure from the moment as possible with little thought of holding out or prolonging it.
"Am I going to need to pull out?" he asked breathlessly. Belatedly it occurred to him that there was one concern they couldn't afford to ignore, no matter how good everything felt right then.
Oh, ick.
"Hm?" she muttered against his neck between exhales, her body commanding her to keep going even as she grasped what he had said. Maker damn it all. She groaned, this time out of frustration, and straightened herself. She was so damn close and she had forgotten to ask Anders for anything. She hadn't been with anyone in so long, she hadn't thought--
"Shit," she whispered against him. That was going to be a problem. Her hands tightened on his arms. "Yes, you are." A fleeting look of sympathy snuck into her gaze and she kissed him. "Sorry."
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It forced him to focus more on his own body awareness, to slow some of the mad race he had indulged toward release. He drew in a shaky breath. His hands dropped lower, cupping firm curves as she lifted and fell over him with the flex of her legs. "Keep going." He kissed her throat, lips and tongue in a trail down toward her collar bone.
Although he slowed his thrusting, it was no less powerful, a full body roll of controlled movement against and beneath her. Reaching a hand between them, he loosely curled his fist against his thigh and offered her the jut of his thumb knuckle to rub against.
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Her hips slowed in their movements, drawing things out just a little longer for the both of them. It wouldn't last, the both of them too impatient for it, but she could alleviate what she could. Her hands moved to rest on his chest and stroke downwards, fondling sure and strong muscles in the wake of her fingers. Hawke offered him another look of gratitude and a kiss beneath his ear as he pressed his knuckle close, and she took advantage of it. Her hand cupped his and guided him to where she needed his finger, and she pressed close. The movement of her hips allowed her to do most of the work on herself and soon she was back to making sounds of desperation against him, want filling her.
It didn't take long before she felt the pressure mount again. She shuddered against him, a prelude to what was to come. She pressed herself down onto him and hissed. "I'm not-- Mmh, I'm close..." She rubbed herself against him in a bid for further friction.
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He arched his back slightly to press against the stroking of her hands, eyelids half closing at the tingle in the wake of warm fingers. He braced her with his other arm, hand against her back to keep her steady across his lap when her movements became jerkier. "Mmnh...Maker yes," he whispered as soon as he could feel the change.
"It's all right. I won't...I won't lose control. You can let go." He couldn't promise that he wouldn't need to pull out shortly afterward. He did know he could hold it until she had the chance to take her pleasure of him. He turned his head, lipping at her earlobe and giving a soft roll of tongue.
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Body leaning into his, she moaned his name softly beneath his ear and tensed, doing as he bid her. Her breath broke from her lungs in a stuttered gasp, her body giving a full shudder in response. She tightened around him in pulses of muscles, growing taut and releasing again and again as she the climax crested. Tightly gripping him, she slowed the movements of her body only enough so she could ride the feeling out and lay herself entirely at the mercy of the sensations.
Her hips didn't still even after all of that, though the movements were much slower. The ache in her muscles began to register, a dull and warm throb, pleasant enough to contrast the sharp tips of her muted desire.
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He closed his eyes and focused on his breathing, as ragged as it could be, low sounds escaping. He hadn't thought she could grip him any tighter. He had been wrong. He bit his lip near to blood to avoid having to withdraw too soon.
"Andraste's pyre," he groaned, turning his face inward against her throat. When he had thought of kissing her that night, he hadn't allowed his thoughts to take it out to this conclusion. Even if he had, his imagination wouldn't have done her justice. He stilled while she shifted slowly, knowing that if both of them were moving at the same time, he'd lose the fragile thread of his control.
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Breathing heavily, she turned to look at him, his skin pale in the faint moonlight. She couldn't see his eyes from the angle she was in but she was struck by how absolutely candid and unguarded he looked, pressed into her. It took her by surprise, hand closing over his briefly. She pressed her nose in close to his ear and dragged her lips beneath it.
As her hips nearly slowed to a languid crawl, she turned to him with a hand running down his arm. "Your pace," she murmured softly, her voice wavering once. She gave him a smile, one of those overly confident and brash looks that she carried with her into fights, and squeezed his arm.
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He drew back enough to look at her, the smile she offered. Bringing an arm back close to his side, he reached up to touch her cheek, a light brush of fingers. They cupped beneath her jaw enough to tilt her head for a kiss, slow and gentle. He nodded at her assertion. Yes, he'd set a pace for himself, but he had no intention of riding roughshod over her orgasm, not when he could feel in every line of the way she held herself that she was still halfway undone.
He kissed her again, his hand at her jaw slipping back to cup at the back of her neck, his thumb close to her ear. He rocked slowly, still close enough that he didn't need to move much to have him gasping all over again. "You feel..." he murmured against her mouth, words trailing off. Good, didn't come close to what he wanted to say, and he was too subsumed in pleasure for waxing more eloquent. He gave a more urgent press lips to lips, letting the want in the contact speak for itself.
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She breathed against his lips as he moved even just the once. Her mouth parted against his and she looked at him, smiling and leaning in to takes his lips again. A hum slipped out, pleased, and her hand strayed up into his hair. "Mmh," was all she voiced as an assent to whatever he had thought to say, which was then lost in a much more insistent kiss.
It was harder for her to keep still now but she was determined to let him lead. There was something enticing about the idea of giving up that control almost entirely, allowing him to take what he would without her urging him on. It was another game for her; could she hold out without coaxing him too much?
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He wasn't ready for that to end, which was why he slowed further, barely rocking, lightly flexing. He drew back from the kiss to meet her gaze, able to see well enough to make a more searching look worthwhile. He shook his head very slightly with an exhale through nostrils that sounded like disbelief. "This is almost too good," he confessed. It was going to be hard to put a business as usual demeanor back on for her when she came around to the Gallows with her friends. This would now rest with the weight of a shared secret between them.
He dared a harder thrust, his dark focus slipping up and back, lips parting. Another, and his fingers tightened over her back to a press of nails. In slow increments he was unwinding the rest of the way. His body trembled with the last vestiges of his efforts to hold out that much longer.
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Her eyes met his and her smile broadened briefly, her lips hovering just inches from his. She laughed softly, kissing beside his mouth. "I wasn't expecting us to get this far tonight." Or anytime soon, actually, after what he had said at the Gallows. She didn't regret it - would not regret it - and it was well worth the secret they would need to keep.
He managed to pull another gasp out of her as he thrust again, her body immediately responding. The slowness of his movements only served to pull her resolve until it was threadbare and thinning by the moment. Her hand dropped to his side, running knuckles over his skin as he shuddered, and marveled silently at his control and the way he looked as he slowly came undone beneath her.
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"I think I need to..." He reached to her hips, guiding her to lift a little while he drew back. He couldn't stop the small, frustrated sound that came when he withdrew, pressing his lips together briefly.
He hesitated before taking her hand and guiding it to his length between them. He used his fingers to curl hers around the shaft, kept his grip steady against the back of her hand, and pushed up into the hold. His breath grew harsh and choppy, a faint line forming between his brows.
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