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a fishing date;
There were no impromptu trips to Sundermount, in fact. Merrill had holed herself up with the Eluvian, avoiding Hawke whenever possible. The Arulin'Holm stayed at the estate, locked away somewhere, and the Dalish woman didn't want to see or hear from Hawke without good cause. Which was understandable (upsetting, but understandable), and she let Varric and Isabela take over Merrill's undertaking. They'd update her whenever possible and she was infinitely grateful, though she knew things couldn't stay that way forever. Eventually, they'd need to talk, and that would happen when Marian was good and ready. For now, she wasn't.
First on her mind was Anders and his mage underground. He would disappear for days on end, surfacing only to work in his clinic where he would refuse to go on any errands. Too busy, he'd say, occupied with his patients and his manifesto. It didn't stop him from pressing worn papers into her hands at every opportunity, the bastard. Her desk was full of Anders' scrawl, damning evidence if anyone should walk in and ask about it. She'd been certain to lock them in the bottom drawer, out of sight and out of mind, but she couldn't put him off any more than she could push aside the trouble she had with Merrill.
With her hands full of Kirkwall's smaller troubles - bandits, a few raiders on the outskirts, and a blood mage or two - she had nearly forgotten her plans with Cullen until she returned one night to a note on her desk at the end of the week. Even such a simple thing was enough to brighten her mood considerably and she packed that evening, though she wasn't to meet him for two more days.
She used the time to tell only a few that she'd be gone from the city, that no one was kidnapping her, and that she'd be very cross if she came back to find Kirkwall burning in her absence. Only Isabela and Varric gave her a hard time for her attempts at discretion, asking for details and gaining nothing.
By sunset on the second day, she was down by the docks to meet him, a pack slung over one arm and her blades across her shoulders, her eyes on the ships and the few workers lingering around. She couldn't be too careful, even now.
First on her mind was Anders and his mage underground. He would disappear for days on end, surfacing only to work in his clinic where he would refuse to go on any errands. Too busy, he'd say, occupied with his patients and his manifesto. It didn't stop him from pressing worn papers into her hands at every opportunity, the bastard. Her desk was full of Anders' scrawl, damning evidence if anyone should walk in and ask about it. She'd been certain to lock them in the bottom drawer, out of sight and out of mind, but she couldn't put him off any more than she could push aside the trouble she had with Merrill.
With her hands full of Kirkwall's smaller troubles - bandits, a few raiders on the outskirts, and a blood mage or two - she had nearly forgotten her plans with Cullen until she returned one night to a note on her desk at the end of the week. Even such a simple thing was enough to brighten her mood considerably and she packed that evening, though she wasn't to meet him for two more days.
She used the time to tell only a few that she'd be gone from the city, that no one was kidnapping her, and that she'd be very cross if she came back to find Kirkwall burning in her absence. Only Isabela and Varric gave her a hard time for her attempts at discretion, asking for details and gaining nothing.
By sunset on the second day, she was down by the docks to meet him, a pack slung over one arm and her blades across her shoulders, her eyes on the ships and the few workers lingering around. She couldn't be too careful, even now.
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He thought about it as he tugged loose the final tie. "I'm well known among the guard. I imagine that would get right back to Aveline in no time flat." His gaze shifted, seeking out what he could see of her eyes. "I imagine that could in some ways be more trouble for you than for me." He kept his hand to the outside of the thinner cloth of her small clothes for now, fingers together and lightly cupping as he worked them past the part in her breeches.
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Her hips brushed forward of their own accord before she could stop them and she hastily closed her mouth to keep any noise from slipping out until she was ready to speak. She found her voice easily enough. "Possibly. It would...depend, I suppose." It would always be down to timing, she suspected. Timing and luck. And knowing her, she'd probably have him in her bedroom and undressed, and then someone like Aveline or Varric would be waltzing in to speak with her or to coerce her to help take care of some trouble in the city.
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He drew a deep inhale, eyelids slipping to half mast. If feeling her sliding against him earlier had been heady, feeling her moving against his hand was completely intoxicating. "I don't want to cause you problems." He leaned forward and pressed a kiss to the corner of her mouth, then remained cheek to cheek as he worked his hand back further. His breath hitched for the heat against his fingers. The cloth did very little to disguise it.
"Hightown is...a problem all its own," he murmured. It was getting harder to think about the topic at hand.
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There was little else she could do except nod in agreement about Hightown. Too many people, too many places to be spotted, the Chantry within a stone's throwing distance. "Unfortunately," she whispered. It would be so much easier if it wasn't an issue.
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"Yes," he agreed. He hooked his thumb in the top of the thin cloth and tugged it down enough for him to work his fingers inside. "Ohh, Maker..." His free hand tightened against the side of her hip to steady her. His breath spilled quickly across her jaw.
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Her hips pressed forward, eager through her sensitivity, and she let out the breath she was holding.
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He angled his hand to give her his fingers to rub against, thumb pressing up against her soft cleft. Her reactions had him feeling hot all over, deep twinges of pleasure straining him against the inside of his breeches. He realized that in some small way he was enjoying the constraint of their position. It was forcing them to take it somewhat slowly and be more creative than just ripping each others' clothes off and going at it.
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His thumb was perfectly positioned and she whimpered softly, ducking her head to put her lips to his neck in a vain attempt to smother the noises he was drawing out of her. She exhaled into his throat between small nips and kisses.
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His head tipped to the side and back of its own volition to expose his throat to her more fully. The pulse in his neck thrummed fast and strong, a tangible beat just beneath the skin. He squeezed his eyes shut. Those little noises of hers were going to be his undoing.
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Remembering dimly that neither of them could have marks where others would see, she released his throat...and found a much more suitable spot on his shoulder, her teeth grazing his skin. His armor would hide most things here, wouldn't it?
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He gave the softest of groans at the first touch of her teeth, tacit permission for her to be rougher if she chose. That low down, he knew no one would see it even if all he wore was a tunic and not full armor.
He didn't know how much more of this he could take, the furtive breaths and moans, the two of them pressed tightly. He squirmed a little to ease the pressure from his breeches, laces pulled taut.
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Her lips closed over a bit of his skin, pleased with the compliance he gave her, and she rolled her hips forward into his hand. The small space between them gave them little room to work with but it allowed her to drink in the warmth of his body and the way he tensed against her.
On the next pass, she gasped as his fingers brushed against her once more, the muscles of her legs tightening and shuddering. She swallowed her moan and kissed his shoulder once more, tongue laving the growing red spot beneath her lips.
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As she pushed forward, he worked his fingers deeper, his wrist strong and allowing him full control of his position. His breath hissed through his teeth. She felt tight and wet around the two fingers. He wondered how she'd taste, how she'd feel atop him.
Before he knew it he was moaning again. His shoulder muscle shifted beneath his skin as he pressed into the slow kiss. He didn't care if it meant he'd have a mark. It would be something to look at over the next few days and remember this by.
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The moans in her ear only served to arouse her further, body leaning into his chest and into his fingers. Every sound he gave was further confirmation of his own undoing and her body reacted to it; her muscles clenched around his fingers as he hissed, which only coaxed a moan out of her into his shoulder. Maker, she wouldn't be able to keep this up if he kept doing that.
Her teeth closed around a small patch of skin, worrying it. She wouldn't bite down hard enough to bruise, though she swiped her tongue across the mark just the same. By the time she was finished, it was raised and red, possibly smarting, and she simply smiled lazily at her handiwork.
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His awareness had centered down to how she felt against him, the choppy sounds of their breaths interspersed with desperate, furtive vocalizations, the delicious sting of teeth over his shoulder.
He kissed the side of her head, anywhere he could reach. He wanted her badly enough that it was an ache, sharp and visceral. He reached his free hand between them to tug at the laces of his breeches, hard, impatient jerks that were nothing like the way he handled hers.
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She turned her head as he began to work on his own trousers and she slipped a hand down to aid him. There wasn't enough in her to focus fully on the knots and she was shoddy help, but she could, at least, give him a little taste of what he was doing to her.
Her hand met the hardened bulge in his breeches, carefully palming him through the fabric. A little added incentive and a bit of a distraction wouldn't hurt him.
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Then he was back to pulling at the laces and forcing the fabric apart. He clamped a little harder with his fingers inside her, working in up to the third knuckle and stroking at slick inner walls. He whispered close to her ear, "Would you stand up for me?"
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Hawke arched into his hand with a gasp, her thighs shuddering under the pressure. She moaned her protests to his invitation, shooting him a look. "You're cruel," she teased, but she was nodding just the same.
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He kissed her once, a hard, hungry kiss that crushed lips to lips. When he drew back it was on a low, frustrated vocalization. How had they gotten to this point so easily, he wondered.
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Now was as good a time as any to remove some of her clothes, starting with her boots, socks, and trousers at the very least. They'd only complicate matters after this. She nudged them to one side and hoped she'd be able to find them again in the darkness.
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He could just see her, a pale shape against shadow, and reached for her to pull her closer. He ghosted kisses across her ribs and stomach. He knew he'd bring her back down to him soon. Not before taking advantage of the new position.
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Her body arched into his lips, the warmth of his breath spilling over her skin. She stretched on her toes, one foot at a time, to shake out the buzzing in her legs. A pleasant hum left her lips and she smoothed her hands over his shoulders around to the back of his neck, fingers dragging just beneath his hair.
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"Are you getting too cramped?" he asked against her skin. He could feel the way she shifted. He had been too distracted to think of it before now. Both hands dragged slowly down her back with a scratch of nails. He shifted one back up to mid-back and let the other follow the curve of her lower back and across the side of her hip. He glanced up at her, head pressing back into her hand and chin resting against the gentle curve of her lower stomach. "Do you need to stand a little longer?"
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Hawke shook her head, back straightening under his attentions. She smiled faintly and enjoyed the warmth of his hands across her skin and she threaded her fingers into his hair. "I'm all right," she promised. She only needed a moment; it would be better than locking up at a bad time and it gave her the chance to work out the restlessness in her body, though she ached to be back in his embrace entirely.
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"Good." He turned his cheek to the side, brushing it against her stomach. As he slowly turned his head, he kissed along the cusp of her hipbone, back center, flirting just above the line of soft hair. His breath was warm, coming swift and shallow.
"I really...want..." The words faltered, cheeks blazing. It was beyond bold, what he wanted to say. At the same time, it wasn't the sort of thing just to spring on someone unawares. He took a deep breath, his hold of her tightening. "To ta...to taste you." His forehead pressed against her, and he realized he was holding his breath.
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Power outages suck.
Oh, ick.
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